My frustrations

I'm a Chinese born American.  Some reason my mom is flipping out over me getting married.  I don't know what is going through her mind, but it is not helping the plans.  All this criticism, and I never did anything wrong.  Okay, I wouldn't say never.  I don't drink.  I don't smoke.  I don't do drugs.  I don't steal.  I'm a good kid. 

I'm trying to do everything they want me to do.  It's been almost two weeks since my engagement.  I should be happy, but no I'm crying my eyes out every day because of all the change in plans.  Now she doesn't even want to go to the wedding.  What's wrong with her????  Someone make me understand, please.

Our plan is to have the tea ceremony Saturday.  The christian ceremony and reception sunday.  What's the big deal if it's split into two days?  I'm having it on the "good" day.  Isn't that enough for them?  No, they need to add a new detail every day.  I can't wear a wedding dress, and if I take it off, I can't put it on another day.  That's fine.  I'm okay with that.  I was planning on wearing a different dress on Saturday anyways.  My invitations can't have any white in them.  What next?  I don't know if I want to find out anymore.  I'm going to be one sad bride.  Sorry if I cry on my wedding day.  It's not my fault.  It's the situations that lead up to it that caused this.

I don't know how much longer I can put up with this.  My sister's right, if it keeps going on like this, I'll never want to get married.  I'm sorry I'm not aware of the "Chinese" traditions.  I went to school, and kept to myself a lot.  I love my family, but I'm the "quiet, good one."  Why can't they trust that I'll make decisions, and if things happen that way they will?